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.:My Home-Town Girl:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:My Home-Town Girl:.

It all started in high school, And who would have thought! A small friendship like ours would survive. Well hell! Hard we had fought! You yell at me, And I yell right back. Even though we're both super heated, Neither of us will be smacked! You know that I'll always be there for you, And I know you would do the same. Just take a look around you girl, You have me to help beat the world's game.

.:Hey Louann. How's It Go?:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:Hey Louann. How's It Go?:.

They call us "the twins" It's a clever nickname. I think when they're drunk though, They really think we're the same! It's so crazy to think, We met just by chance. What would've happened if .. If my roommate had been Lance? I'm glad we hit it off that day, I feel less guilty when you offer to pay! I know I am lucky to have a twin just like you Whenever I'm upset, it even makes you feel blue. Can you believe that this year makes it three? I feel I've known you longer,

.:Lucky Stars:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:Lucky Stars:.

Some may call her Angie, Not once have I heard Petey. There is one name we all know her by, That name, my dear, is Sweetie! Her doors are always locked, But her arms are always open. We all wish we had her strength, Since you never see her around mope'n! I am glad I have my Sweetie, I'm her favorite, I've been told. I hit the Jackpot! Lucky me! I found my pot-o-gold.

.:My, Oh My:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:My, Oh My:.

I may have his eyes, I may have his lips. But one thing's for sure, I'm blessed with her hips! She gave me her laugh, For sure I have her smirk. One habit she won't claim though, When I drink, I also slurp! She is there to help keep me strong. She is the someone who's pushed me this far. If it wasn't for her, I don't know where I'd be. Oh! I figured it out, I'd still be stuck in a tree!

.:Cold Night:. by silent-insanity, literature

.:Good Night:. by silent-insanity, literature

.:The Past Haunts Me:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:The Past Haunts Me:.

I hate this feeling I get in my gut when I think of it happening. I hate the fact that I could have stopped it if I had only tried harder. I hate knowing that it was my fault. I hate, just hate everything that's happened between them. I hate her. I hate him more. I hate myself to death. I've died inside because of their actions. I committed suicide because of mine. I smile today because I pushed it all away. Yet it lurks in the shadows of my smile only to leap and kill me again. It hurts him to see me like this. It kills me to have him hurt. It's a vicious circle that doesn't have an end. I want to take it all back. I

.:All the 'NTs':. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:All the 'NTs':.

You lied to me Told me everything was all right It wasn't You told me it was over That I'd never have to doubt you again It wasn't You told me you'd never cheat on me That you'd leave before it got to that You didn't We made a promise That we'd tell each other everything You didn't We made a commitment To be there through thick and thin You weren't You said you'd be here for me When I thought no one was there You weren't Things are fixed now And I'm starting to recover. But I need you to know That I wanted to be your only lover.

.:Menage a Trois:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:Menage a Trois:.

You love him the way I love him... You've seen him in a way only I should have... every curve and every muscle... You know what he likes and hates in the most intimate of ways... He's promised you things that he should have promised me... He's told you his secrets that I was sworn to keep safe... He told me he'd be mine forever and yet there you are... holding a pie

.:-Untitled-:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:-Untitled-:.

falling forever stomach in my mouth that feeling of tightening acid at the back of my throat seeing your eyes blank staring back at me burns a hole inside that will be kept empty drowning and cold cannot breath unless it burns swimming to get no where you see me and let me drown i cry out your name to the heavens and the stars they look down at me in pity but shine brightly for everyone else my only comfort is shiny and sharp to the touch i wouldn't resort to this but i feel i have no one to trust

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.:It Hurts:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:It Hurts:.

i hurt myself. i hurt. i hurt. i bleed. it drips. it stings. my wrist will ache for moments. scars will be there forever. forever looking me in the face. forever telling me that i'm not perfect. and i never will be. i'm still here though. i'm still alive. i'm both glad and upset. it would be easy to just let go. to just push deeper. to let it all slip away. then again people say they need me. people say they wouldn't want to lose me. how can i believe them though? when all i cause is pain. when it feels as if all i do is make things worse. when all i want is to make them go away. make all the problems go away. that's w

.:Is It Worth All This:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:Is It Worth All This:.

Is It Worth All This? It's killing you to see me. It's killing you not to see me. How should I feel about that? It's a lose-lose situation. I want you to be happy. I want you to feel joy. I'd do whatever it took -to see you smile. But this? This isn't happy. This is suicidle. This is pain. You told me you wouldn't be happy -if we took a break. You say that, but you don't know. You could feel relieved. You could feel a burden lifted from you shoulders. All from just not seeing me. From the beginning I told you -"I don't deserve you." You can do so much better. With a girl who isn't like me. Who can make you happier -tha

.:What I See:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:What I See:.

When I look into the mirror. I don't see what you see. I see someone who can be improved. Who could be more slender. Who could be much taller. Who could be more beautiful. When I turn around to tell you these things, You smile at me. Your smile is warm and reassures me. You tell me that I look fine. No matter who tells me different. In your eyes I'm perfect. When you tell me this I believe it's true. Because in your eyes, it is. And that's the only thing I need to know.

.:She Died Why:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:She Died Why:.

She Died Why? One day they'll ask: "Why did she do it? How could she do it? She had no reasons to. Her mother loved her. Her family cared about her. And her boyfriend would do anything -to keep her happy. Why did she do it?" I'll tell you why I did it. I felt anger from no where surge up inside. I felt hatred and malice, -all from inside. My vision was clouded -as I reached for the knife. All I thought about was ending my life. The knife felt cool and soothing against my skin. I watched the steel turn to red. Red as my blood, that was dripping me dead. So now you know this isn't a lie. This is the reason I felt I should d

.:Have You Ever:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:Have You Ever:.

Have You Ever? Have you ever felt your skin and cold steel? The way your skin tugs and pulls against a blade. That tiny burning sensation, -after you've dragged a knife across. Have you ever seen the trails, -made on your sking by a blade? The way it rises up after you've pushed it deep. The way it leaves a long, -red welt against your skin. Have you ever thought about -what would happen if you just pushed --a little deeper? If you tugged a little harder? To see the knife underneath -all of your skin. To see your skin rip apart. To see your skin run red. Have you ever?

.:-No Title-:. by silent-insanity, literature

.:Never Thought:. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:Never Thought:.

I never thought I'd be one of those kids you'd hear about in the news. I never though it'd end like this. Isn't it funny, -that the people who seem to have it all figured out on the outside, --are the ones who need the most help on the inside? I never thought one of those people, -would be me. I was the one everyone came to, -but what about me? Who was I to turn to? Who was there for me? How could you love me when all I caused was pain? Pain that no bandaid could subside. Pain no band-aid could ever heal. You deserved so much better. Why did you choose me? I'm sorry I did this. You shouldn't have to read. But now you know

.:My Fault ? :. by silent-insanity, literature

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.:My Fault ? :.

Why can't I be happy? Today just isn't my day. Why does everyone seem to be against me? This is all your fault. I can't understand why I need you. You hurt me from the inside out. But yet you make me happy. I feel guilty when I talk to you. I feel like I shouldn't get mad. As if I'm not allowed to be upset with you. You make me feel guilty because I'm mad at you. You think i'm not going through shit to be with you? You think I don't wonder about breaking up wtih you too? I think you need me more than I need you. But then I think back on those words -and realize that you're my everything. So really it's switched up -and I need

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One Night Stand,Plus More by PoeticIrony, literature

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One Night Stand,Plus More

You reach and grab my hand, Bringing it to your crotch And I give you what you want. So good and fun,its just sex yet again But somehow my morals are gone, I think its because of my ex love So I'm doing this to feel wanted. Seriously don't feel sorry for me I wanted it just as much When I'm fucking him, You're no longer on my mind So,why can't I do it? There is no reason not to And theres nothing you can say So that one night stand last night, It was so fucking good To the both of us. So,you asked me to do it again tonight So I said yes I am such a fucking scene whore, And you know that too But thats what you love about

Highest Bidder by Auza065, literature

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Highest Bidder

Uncomfortable Silence Hours passing almost too easily After the warm rain Wipes the stench clean What do I do then? What can I be? What kind of a man Works till the end To eat at his table To sleep in his bed And who can claim the right To take away the life Of a man who spent his time Living through the fight So tell me the truth To be the real you You gotta to sell your soul to the Highest Bidder This can't be right Turning out the light It wasn't long ago The man I used to know is gone to me Give me what power You said I could have Lies are no new thing Wish I remembered that And what kind of man Works till his

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silent-insanity

Nov 21, 2006

Here I am .. There I go

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So, I pretty much died when it came to deviantart. I haven't been on in a really long time and after this I probably still won't be on for a really long time. College is hitting me hard you guys. My schedule is fine, I love it. I'm just lazy. Senioritis didn't hit me last year, it waited like a snake to hit me in college. The poison is sinking in and I'm trying to suck it out so it doesn't kill me. So I joined a sorority. Yeah, I know. I don't seem like that kind of person, but it's more of so that I have more friends that will help me transition into college life. So far, I love it and I love the girls. I haven't written anything in such

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silent-insanity

Aug 9, 2006

..Oh Em Gee..

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Expect a lot of angsty, slit-your-wrist-and-pity-me poetry. . . . Either all of it or some will explain what's been going on these past months. Things have finally been worked out and I'm in the recovery mode of it. . . . This little poem is for all of you. Don't tell me you're sorry  because you did nothing to make it happen. Don't tell me you're sorry  because you couldn't stop it. Don't tell me you're sorry  because you don't know what else to say. Just tell me you are here and that one day they'll pay. . . . We've all taken a beating, but that little part of me doesn't care. I know you've all been here.

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silent-insanity

Jun 30, 2006

Irrational

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I want to rant and rave and scream to all of deviantart what's happened. But then everyone will know what I want to keep locked away for only a precious few to see. I just can't get over this. I almost never want to get over it, but that will make things worse. I just don't understand, I can't understand.

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hey... i think i have prob now added all ur poems 2 my favs...i just wanna say i think u r amazing at writing and i think i can relate to all ur stuff.....

u seem 2 have an amazing boyfriend...u r so luvky, gud guys r so hard to cum by!!!!